A Mother's Intuition

 

 

I knew there was a baby girl still waiting to come to our family, I just didn't want to admit it. Although I haven't shared this with many people, our blog is our family journal and I want to record it. I wanted to be done, but in the beginning of March I had strong feelings that we were suppose to have another baby. All I could think about was girl names. I texted Santiago at work asking him how he felt about trying at the beginning of next year.  When he texted back, "Sure" he said he felt something also.  When we talked about it later I went back and forth but ultimately was to scared.  We went back to our plan of stopping at 3.  We had plenty of time if we ever felt like another child needed to come, but it was not anytime in the near future.  At this same time, by brother and his wife were expecting.  I told them that if they were having a girl they could have all of Sam's baby clothes.  When I got the text from them at the end of March that they were indeed having a girl, I cried my eyes out.  It didn't feel right giving away Sam's clothes, and I felt these feelings like I should be having a baby girl too. I was so confused about this, because I honestly had no desire to go through labor and the newborn stage again.  Plus I was overwhelmed by my three little ones already.  I pushed these feelings back and focused on our kitchen remodel.  As mentioned in a previous post, I found out that I was expecting by complete shock beginning of May.  After my OB appointment, I realized that I was having these feelings a few weeks before I got pregnant.  I know it is not a co-incidence. My whole pregnancy I have only been able to think about girl names, never once thinking that it could be a boy. At my 20 week ultrasound yesterday my feelings were confirmed.

 

 

I am happy that Sam will have a sister, dreading the constant fighting that is sure to come!




I told Santiago after our appointment that I thought this baby looks like Xavier, and then my mom said that same thing.  I just might have a girl that looks something like me after all!